Deep breath!

God, I'm terrible! And 'god' as in frustrated NOT the God. I have only attempted the piano once to test it out and I was interrupted by the Piano child genius who promptly helped me play the first few bars! Thank god he didn't burst into the whole song!

I will get there thou! Tomorrow I have no afterschool commitments, so we will see how we go!

One major set back - again no sleeping well.....hard to get to sleep, waking up still! Hmmmm.....I think it may be becasue I have restarted watching Grey's Anatomy and am watching it my room, instead of the lounge, I have read somewhere that you should never eat, work, read, or watch TV in your room - it is purely for rest!

Oh welcome back the days when I would collapse exhusted onto my bed at 8pm!

One positive thing is that a friend has told me that the old Amy has returned! I am back to myself...hmmm...I have no motivation for work or out of school....haha, oh well at least I am laughing smiling and am in at least someones good books!

Bring the world on!

Time to read

Well, being in the Philipines really helped to destress myself, however it also gave me ALOT of time to reflect...hmmmm.....not a good idea for the depressed I found out. I think I handled it realatively well....but I guess my travelling companion can only really be the judge of that! While sunning ourselves on the beach I was able to start a book about the dreaded diagnosis and was pleasantly surprised to be laughing at parts and discovering new things. The journal is helping and I even have a new idea for an art piece, that is prgressing slowly and has derived from the song lyrics 'This is me'. Yay, let's cross fingers it keeps going somewhere! My first art piece in a few years........ Also, the book mentions starting a time diary of your day, writing down, food, drinking and drug habits. Well, you can scrap the last one, I have never been an avid pill user and I hate needles. The others are VERY relevent....coping mechanism for living where I do! Not keen to put too much pressure on myself with my 'assignment' journal and keeping another, I am putting it off and starting on another suggestion - music. Already a HUGE music listener and fan, it talks more directly about playing an instrument.....Piano.....my return is near....watch out! I have been haunted by the tuants of 'Fur Elise' (Beethoven), so I have printed it out and hope to start on the keyboards at school today - not quite the same as the real thing but I can't complain! We'll see how I go!