I had an interview yesterday with a school in Hong Kong and people kept asking me 'Are you nervous', 'Do you feel prepared'.....and I had no answer for them....I really felt nothing!
It took me awhile to realise that this is probably an effect of 'The Nemisis' and not becasue I am a self involved person who does not need to worry about important interviews with schools in Hong Kong (a market VERY hard to break into!). My only wish is that my blazeness did not present itself in my interview. However, this aside, I think that it went quite well and if I don't get the job it will be because of inexperience with PYP and team teaching with a Mandarin teacher (a very interesting concept).
What worries me though is my lack of feeling. This is the only way I can describe this feeling - a lack of. It's like my whole body is a sea of calm that is not prone to reacting.
I have had a pretty tough week with timetable changes, the Aussie bushfires (friends, friends missing and died) and after 1 year of being here not being able to go on a PD course - that's going to look great when I am looking for a job! However, none of this has phased me and I am stating to people 'Man, I am angry' however not really feeling that feeling....at all!
I am going through a dual feeling: my old self (very happy and lively) or a quiet, unmotivated feeling (this one is only when alone (usually early morning in bed). Even then however, I am searching for a reason why I can't get out of bed, knowing what it is but not really feeling the feeling of it............this is VERY strange!
The only consulation is being me again! A great feat in such a short time....even if it is becasue of the little white pill!
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