The Nemisis

Today was interesting. It was the first time since I have been back that I did not want to get out of bed. It was a very strange feeling - knowing that I had to, nothing was wrong, but not physically being able to. The battle was finally won and I had to calm my rising panic down and realise that the world would not end if I did not make it to school before 7.30am. After putting it off and putting it off, before I walked out the door it was time to take 'The Nemisis' - the name I have affectionately dubbed my little white pain in the ass, reminder of a pill! The first few days of taking this I was in NZ and the first thing I thought about in the morning and I really strugled with taking it. On getting back to China, I started making a wee ritual out of it and taking it with all of my 'hippie' natural pills (spiralina, Vit C etc). This morning was a huge step backwards........ Being a non pill taker - no headache is ever diagnosed with a Panadol - this is one huge struggle. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and one day soon, this wee pill will be one that I let glide over my head everytime I take it and come to terms with the fact that I really do need it. At the moment my thoughts are still - really?