Things here at school are not going so well, the place is in crazed turmoil and the staff are even resorting to taking it out on each other, including friends!
I have now got myself in such a wee panic as I am left wondering if I am really coping with any of this?
Last term when all of these were happening, even when I was trying to look at things positively and do things to help, I got...well, that's how I got where I am now. So why am I still sleeping at night, not feeling at rock bottom, tired, frustrated and reacting like everyone else? The school is an absolute mess and a nightmare all rolled into one and here I am sitting here like 'I'm cool', 'I'm ok with things', 'I'm dealing'.
It almost feels like I have to retrain myself to know how I should be reacting or feeling towards these things.
Is it the pills or am I just working myself back to my old self and not letting work things effect me without dealing with them or if things are out of my control?
Too many questions....maybe I'll let this one slide too!
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